Tuesday, 22 September 2009

candy darling

"Unfortunately before my death I had no desire left for life… I am just so bored by everything. You might say bored to death. You know I couldn’t last. I always knew it. I wish I could meet you all again."

Monday, 21 September 2009

how i long to stumble into you half blind and wide eyed all the same
and the pieces of me i loathe are the ones you admire most
you like me for me wit and cunning
and i am in love with a ghost
of the person i wish you were
and he still wishes i was her
or she was me or either or
and i am tearing up the carpet and clasping at the door
a man on the street told me of my redemption
and told me stories about a divine intervention
but the things that happened when he was a lad
i swear to his god they're just dreams he had
because when you can't explain a thing
and when all you want is everything
it's easy to tangle yourself up in knots
i'm waking up in basketball courts and parking lots
placing bets and drawing lots
on things that shouldn't be left to chance
and i'll give it all up for you if you'll give me this dance
because love baby is a game for two
making snuff movies and criticising who
ever dares to defy us in the roles we take as gods
and the stakes are best when they're high darling, against. all. odds.

Tuesday, 15 September 2009

maybe i just can't cope with the future

Monday, 14 September 2009

below is a photo of my best friend, and this photo is a source of endless amusement for me, because it was taken on a night that was one of the best nights of my life, even though it was technically diabolically bad

there are not many good photos of us together, that sum us up pretty accurately, but i think this one is a fair effort:

either way, i am posting this blog because
a) i haven't seen her in over two weeks :|
b) i miss her like a crazy person
c) i love her lots

i'm done (:

Thursday, 10 September 2009

A good place to look to the future is when you are sat at the sea, with the salt up to your ankles and a view of the end of the pier, you may look down at your model's feet and wish that you'd just float away, and the weather here is overcast and the sea is the same shade of grey, so the landscape before you looks just like the edge of the world, but to the left side and the right side, either way is a crazy golf course.
The sea is a good place to think of the future.

Tuesday, 8 September 2009

let the rhythm suck out the poison

I was scared to call your mother
For news that you weren't getting better
My God, just what the hell am I supposed to do?

And I ran off, and ran on to something
That I swore was everything but beautiful
I only say that word for you

Cause I can feel your pain
In my bones, in my bones
And I can feel your pain
Deep in my bones, deep in my bones

Sunday, 6 September 2009

i will love you again

"and as i gazed at you in front of the strobe lights everything got blurry, like the time billy crashed into the fountain on my front lawn, and i remember how when the stone smashed the water seemed to explode and dance like fireworks in that early autumn sky. i could picture the water then, as i saw you move, and the outline of your body through that second-hand chiffon dress reminded me of the way the light from his headlights would catch the droplets as they made their bid for escape, before crumbling like the empire before ours. the music was in my shoes and in my soul, and as you bathed in light like i once did in that summer time fountain, i hoped you never ever crumbled, and if you did i wouldn't let you crumble alone."

Tuesday, 1 September 2009

did you see the stylish kids in the riot? shovelled up like muck, set the night on fire
wombles bleed, truncheons and shields
oh i cherish you my love

we can't fight our desires

leeds fest 09 was cripplingly good, between us we went through around 400 cigarettes, and on sunday night we all collective lost our minds to the lure of rave.